Anyone else feel like Mother's Day sometimes is a day to remind us how perfect we're supposed to be and how perfect we aren't? Here's my vision of the modern perfect mom: the soft spoken discipline of Michelle Duggar, the encouragement of Joanna Gaines, the delicious meals of Rachael Ray, the spiritual wisdom of Shauna Niequist, the body of Jennifer Lawrence.
I am none of those women.
Not a soul on this Earth would call me soft-spoken, and if not for my Instant Pot, my family would live on frozen pizzas.
And those expectations are self-inflicted wounds that remind us of all the harsh words, harsher tones, and frustration we've unleashed in the last year.
Perfection? Not even close.
I have a friend struggling with being a mom right now...the hardest parts...the anxiety, guilt, pessimism, can't-give-anymore hardest parts. So, I channeled my inner Joanna Gaines, compiled the wisdom of others, and texted this:
For her, but also for myself. The struggle is real, and common, and turns us into the mom our kids need us to be. It's ok to lean in to the struggle. It's ok to cry and give up sometimes. Mother's Day is about celebrating the mom that God (and your kids) are helping you become. We're never the same mom year to year, sometimes even changing day-to-day, and I'm only three years into this journey. Others have experienced so much more, and yet still the same.
So, here's to Mother's Day 2017- from all of us tired, busy, hot mess mommas thankful that the struggle (and the blessing) is real.
We started our day around 7:30 am with complimentary breakfast at Picasso Cafe just down the street from our B&B. The filled croissants and cappucino were insanely good! My mouth is watering just remembering the taste! This is also the first time we ordered in Italian, "Due Croissant 'e Cappuccino por favare".
While we sat at our little table on the street, we checked the Rick Steve's book for tips on the major attractions we were planning to hit that day, but the best advice was what Mary told us. She said to start at the Roman Forum, the farthest entrance from the Colosseum and work "backwards". That way, we wouldn't have to stand in line and the crowds will pass us since we're going the opposite direction. Brilliant...we didn't wait in a single line the entire time we were in Rome thanks to Mary!
On our short walk to Via de Fori Imperiali (the major street that all of the ruins are on), we saw a shop owner sweeping outside her door. I had to stop and take a picture because when I think of an Italian shop owner, that is the exact scene that I see!
So, we found our way past this very forward Roman guy and bought our ticket into the Roman Forum and here is what we saw...
At the far end is the Arch of Septimius Severus. It has very detailed drawings of battles in Mesopotamia and intricate flowers on the underside of the arch. Apparently this was common because we saw it on many arches in the city.
As we walked through the ancient ruins we took hundreds of pictures (it was our first sight of ruins this old, of course), so here are just some of the pictures we took in the general Forum.
Between the Roman Forum and Palatine are two interesting spots: Nero's Temple and the House of Vestali.
Nero's House looked like a temple with
giant doors entering into this circular area. Of course it had the dome like every other important building in Rome!
Casa delle Vestali was the most intact part of the ruins. You could see the house walls that surrounded this courtyard. Statues lined the courtyard with giant pools in the center. It was really beautiful, especially with the clouds that day.
I wouldn't recommend living in the house while doing a kitchen remodel. That wasn't our original plan, but thanks to a backed up sewer and general unpleasantness of our apartment, alas we are living through a kitchen remodel.
The day we moved in, May 5th, we conned rewarded the guys with the chance to do some demolition if they helped us move...clever, I know! So, the men brought sledgehammers and tore the kitchen and dining room down to the studs. Then Mark and I took over and continued the demo!
Demolition Day 1
Demolition Day 2
Demolition Day 3
Demolition Day 4
On Day 4, we made an interesting discovery. Behind the wall of wood panels in the dining room we found a beer... an open beer...an open beer from 1971. Apparently it is true, the guy who chose to put up wood panels had to have been drinking!
Takes Responsibility for the Wood Panels of 1971
Cabinet Layout
The next step was to do some designing and measuring. We actually marked out the cabinets on the floor before we ordered them. We went with Unfinished Shaker Style from Builder's Warehouse. This saved us a lot of money and also allowed us to paint them the exact color we wanted.
We also had to redo all of the electrical behind the soon-to-be walls, so we ran lots of 'home runs' (I've learned some construction lingo in this process, I plan to be fluent by the end!)
Disclaimer: Don't worry, a real electrician, with real skills, and a real license is doing all of the actual electrical work...we are just pulling wires through holes in the ceiling!
Home runs to Electrical Box
Wires Ready for Outlets
In addition to the electrical, I thought I'd take the time to remove all the rest of the wallpaper from the house, may it rest in peace.
Wallpaper Bouquets
Charlie Supervising the Drywall Process
The next step was to build the walls. We decided to section off a portion of the dining room to use as a new main bathroom, so we built a wall 5 feet into the original dining room. This still allows for a 12X12 dining room and a 10X14 kitchen!
New Dining Room Wall
New Wall
New Wall Completed
The other major component to this project was our goal of removing the wall between the living room and dining room to have one giant, open space leading from the front door, through the living room, dining room, and kitchen. However, after talking to our contractor, we all agreed the wall was just too load-bearing, so we planned a more conservative change. We made the standard doorway into a 6 foot opening, which really opened up the space, but still allowed for a more formal dining room area.
New Doorway to the Dining Room
The pantry/fridge area is another complicated part of this remodel. We knew we wanted the fridge surrounded and we didn't want to lose the existing pantry. So we bumped the pantry wall out two feet, moved a floor-to-ceiling cabinet from the laundry room in to be the new pantry, and created a nook for the fridge.
Fridge & Pantry
Fridge Surround & Pantry Cabinet
The last step in the basic part of the build was to mud and sand the drywall and redo the ceiling plaster.
Finished Walls
Ceiling Now Uniform
Have I mentioned I spent two hours dusting our living room after all the sanding and I still didn't get it all cleaned! I think I'll be dusting for years to come before it is all gone! Charlie, of course, thinks the dust is fun and tries to lay in it as often as possible!
Up Next: The Remodel Chronicles, Part 3 (Installation)
Summer is finally here. How can I tell? I drank a hot cup of coffee (teachers develop a taste for lukewarm coffee since it takes a whole day to finish a cup), I'm still in my PJ's, I got to watch the Live with Kelly, and I have time for a blog post!
It has been four months since I last posted here, how can that be? I had such high hopes to be able to blog regularly, since writing is like therapy for me! Maybe I should have been blogging because then I would have rationalized the incredibly ambitious remodel we have begun. Although, the picture I see when I walk into the dusty, open room that is now our kitchen would have talked me back into it. Actually, that picture looks a lot like this:
I can't wait to post an After picture like this! Before pictures are sad, During pictures make me tired, but the After is where it's at.
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So, as to not put the cart before the horse, or the wood floor before the orange shag, here are the Before pictures to show where we began...
Kitchen & Mudroom
Kitchen Sink Area
Kitchen Peninsula
Pantry
Pantry
Kitchen & Dining Room
Dining Room
Dining Room
Doorway to Dining Room
Fun FeaturestoNote:
Blue flowery wallpaper- reminiscent of my grandma's blue German plates! I kept a piece of it to show proof of its awesomeness!
Orange carpet- actually, it's reddish in some areas, yellow in others, and not the original flooring- it's actually sitting on some linoleum that wasn't all that bad!
Brown paneled walls- darkness descended even with the giant sliding glass door!
Brown appliances- original to the house, push-buttons instead of dials
Up Next: The Remodel Chronicles- Part 2 (The Early During Pictures)
(Insert typical gasp/ obligatory, "I don't know how you do it" comment.)
Once upon a time I was sure I'd love teaching middle school, I almost made that my major, but then decided to get my degree for grades 6-12 so I'd have more freedom.
And then I started teaching high school and LOVED it...love, love, loved it! And now I miss it. I miss the deep conversations-Becky & Jen who'd walk in often and say, "Mrs. A, I need you to plan my life". I miss working at the Football games and starting the "We are!" "Lancers!" cheer each game. I miss block scheduling like you can't believe! I miss celebrating and joking, "Stay off the roads", when my students get their driver's license. I miss the other amazing English and Resource teachers I got to work with.
And now, I live in middle school land. And I've learned that I still get to have deep conversations, when a student asks how to deal with something going on in her life. Though football games are a thing of the past, I get to see them compete in Speech tournaments, Scholastic Bowls, and treat their basketball and volleyball games like it's the NBA and National Championships. Though block scheduling isn't realistic for middle school, I now have a good schedule and a teacher's aid on occasion that helps me work with individual students more often. I write recommendations for high school Honors English class and celebrate when they 'get in'! I'm now a one-man show when it comes to middle school English, but I get to find ways to incorporate other disciplines into the lessons I teach, which helps make me a better teacher.
So now, in my middle school world, I've discovered that it's not the age or grade level that I love, it's teaching. I just love teaching, regardless of who the kids are. (However, don't ask me to wipe noses or teach anyone younger than 6th grade, I may change my story!) I love being with students all day! I love seeing them succeed and helping them make better choices. I love being a teacher!
So what do "Snowballs, Football, and Skinny Buffaloes" have to do with anything? This is actually the subject of an email I received this week from our Middle School Division Coordinator about some behavior issues at recess that we need to be aware of from our Middle School students....and I thought the title was hilarious! One day, maybe I'll share the whole story behind the email, but since it involves students I can't right now. I may even make this the title of my book one day (if I ever write one...can I say bucket list!). This email title would never be necessary at the high school. Isn't middle school fun?!
Recently, my school rolled out a plan to have tablets in the hands of every 6th and 7th grader to be used consistently in the classroom. My first thought was, wow, that'll be pretty cool, we don't have to worry about sharing computers anymore. And then I thought, uh oh...internet at the fingertips of every student in my room- the number of possible distractions to middle school minds will exponentially increase! So, I went to work scouring the internet for the best ways to incorporate the technology my students would be toting to class, while not relying entirely on technology in case it happens to fail. Yikes!
First, I typed in every Google search phrase I could think of: 'Using technology in the classroom', 'Best Apps for Teachers', 'Best Websites for Students', 'Top 10 uses for Google in the classroom', 'HowInTheWorldDoITeachThisWayAndKeepMySanity'?
And then over winter break I found my answer: Google Webinars for Teachers. This is a site with real teachers who have become Google Docs Masters (I think they're really called "Google Certified Teachers", but they are "Mr. Miyagi" to me). What's great is they are now helping the rest of us learn how to really utilize the resources we have at our fingertips.
And. It's. Amazing.
And after watching this whole video (and about 6 more like it)- I'm proud to present:
My Five Go-To Tech Resources for the Classroom 1) Google Docs- I've had each student create Google Docs named "Bellwork" and "Homework" and have dropped them into a Collection specific to their class(Instructions here and here). Now, everyday when they walk into class, I have a Bellwork assignment posted, they open the same document, scroll to the very bottom, write the date and begin their Bellwork. The same goes for homework. This has revolutionized the way I grade! When I am ready to grade these assignments, I open the student's Doc, read the newest assignments, then add a comment with a grade or feedback to the last post (instructions here). I have been able to give my students more feedback using this method than ever before and it takes so much less time- very important for us English teacher-types!
2)Class Website- I live on my class website...and so do my students. I have my site set up like a blog, with a page for each grade/class I teach. I create a daily post that basically looks like my lesson plans, with a list of the Bellwork, Grammar, Daily Lesson, and Homework that we will discuss in class. I include links to every video, PowerPoint, and document I will use during the class. Then, when my students enter the room, I open their web page for the day and project it. I start at the top with their Bellwork, and we work our way through the steps for the day, clicking on links and reading instructions. It keeps me on track and saves time in my planning. What's great, too, is that absent students (whether physically absent from school, or those who just may not be paying attention) can refer to the website at home and know exactly what occurred in class. I no longer have to answer the question, "What did I miss?", my website does for me!
3) Skitch/Whiteboard Apps: I inherited a set of 12 personal-sized whiteboards in my classroom and 3 working dry erase markers. Unfortunately that means I'm about 5 boards and 14 markers short of using them during class. Now, I could probably request more and the school would hook me up. However, I've discovered the genius of technology when helping students review. Take, for example, my 6th graders who were learning about prepositions and conjunctions. As a review one day, I had each student open Skitch or another Whiteboard app on their tablets and use them just as we would the whiteboards. I said a sentence, they wrote down the preposition to review. It was great...AND they were able to save their answers to go back and review them again before the test. Genius!
4) Evernote: I went on an App Hunt for the best note-taking app that would work with the Thrive tablets my students have now and Evernote gets my vote. In the past, my students were required to have a notebook divided into four sections: Bellwork, Grammar, Literary Terms, and Notes. In Evernote, they can do that exact same thing in folders and create notes pages just as they would in a real notebook. I have seen Evernote transform some of my most organizationally challenged students into neat freaks. They're addicted to technology at that age, I'm just using it to my (and really, their) advantage.
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Side note: My students are living in an age where they don't have to memorize every bit of information they will need to know in life, like many students have had to do in the past. The key to education now is finding a balance between teaching them the information, and teaching them how to find the information. Now that being said, there are just some things they have to learn, memorize, use, and store in their long-term memory (grammar and usage come to mind), but for so many aspects of education, it is vital that they become highly-qualified researchers.
So, in that spirit, I have learned not to answer many of the questions my students ask of me. This is so counter-intuitive for me because I'm a teacher. I was taught that I need to be prepared for class, a.k.a. know all the answers-- anticipate what they might ask and be ready with a well-developed answer to every question that arises.
Exhibit A:8th Grade Student: Why does Romeo say it's like cutting off his head with a Golden Axe? What does a Golden Axe have to do with anything in this play? Me: (internally: oh crap, how could I ever anticipate that question? Hmm...Mythology maybe?) Of course, Student, the Golden Axe is an allusion to Greek mythology, which contributes to the belief that Shakespeare must have been familiar with writers like Homer. (internally: Hey, that sounds good, it's totally bogus, but it sounds intelligent, phew...crises averted!).
Even if I didn't give that bogus answer and said I'd find out, I would just go to Google anyway and start my research into the Golden Axe. I may consult an old Shakespeare textbook to double check my findings, but I'd do the research. Now check out what really happened...
Exhibit B:8th Grade Student: Why does Romeo say it's like cutting off his head with a Golden Axe? What does a Golden Axe have to do with anything in this play? Me: I don't know, I never noticed that before. Why don't you look it up and see if you can find info about why Shakespeare included the Golden Axe. Student: Ok...(and tap, tap, tap begins on his keyboard)
You know what we all learned that day? Shakespeare used silver and gold as contrasting images for life and death. Betcha didn't know that one. It's ok, I didn't either, but my student does now because he's become a master researcher.
Which leads me to my fifth, and final Go-To Tech Resource:
> I watch TV and movies, not for the feeling it gives me, or the punch lines, or the story, necessarily. I watch shows expecting the writing to wow me!
> I have actually said the words, "That alliteration was incredible!" in regards to a line of a show.
> I am constantly looking for parallel structure in shows, especially when a they bring back a line or comment used in a very early episode.
> I comment on characterization, and often wish for additional air time for a character that needs to be developed.
> I audibly fill in lines that they "should've said" and wonder why they chose not to (because if I thought of it, obviously one of the show writers had to have thought it as well).
> I prefer to watch TV episodes in order because the plot line fits better in my head. It's even better if I can do marathon weekends with multiple episodes to remind me of the nuances and intricacies of the plot.
> I notice the smallest details of the set and camera work because I love that someone spent that time to include these perfect little additions.
> I am always watching for an example to use in class, whether it's the alliteration, hook, foreshadowing, etc.
For Christmas, Mark got me the best gift ever~ The West Wing Complete Series DVD box set. Speaking of incredible writing- it's a show that features writers and great writing! He has since been forced willingly watching The West Wing (how's that for alliteration)!
So last night as we're watching West Wing, the episode where Bartlett announces he has MS and is preparing for the live interview, I noticed probably the smallest detail I've ever noticed on a show, but it made an incredible difference, at least to me.
Usually when Bartlett is seen in the Oval Office, the scene is shot from a low angle, looking up at the President to give him a taller and larger appearance in such a huge room (since Martin Sheen is so short). But, during this episode, the point of view was shifted dramatically higher so that it made the President look smaller, highlighting the disease he was about to reveal.
How many of the millions of people who have seen this show noticed that shift? Was it just me? Am I the weirdo who appreciates the characterization that just a shift of a camera can create? Thank you West Wing for wowing me once again.
